I begin. I pray that this will benefit me and anyone who reads this. I am not looking for readers. Then why a blog? I don’t really know how to explain the benefits I received during my first blogging adventure. I felt the same rush today. I thought all day – what do I say?, where do I start? I thought of many things to write about, reflect upon and do. I was immobilized earlier and I still am not sure what will happen as I write. The reflecting and thinking was like prayer for me but took me out of my normal patterns of conversation with the Lord. This is what I need but I am not sure it is what the Lord wants for me or us.
I do feel more at peace as I write. I hope my efforts will be pleasing to Him. Where to start? I am a sinner, pray for me. Lord, have mercy on me. Look upon me with a loving and kind gaze. Help me to look on others with the same gaze. I often fail at charity toward others. It is all about me. So much so that I am ungrateful for all the wonderful things around me, the wonderful relationships I have, and the blessings I have received. The Lord sees my ingratitude even when I pretend or try to hide it. Today’s Gospel reading speaks to God’s sight. What am I in God’s sight? I don’t like thinking about that. Yet, that is what Lent is – transforming what is to what it should be.
So, thank you Father for all you have given, everything I am and have come from you.
Forgive me Father for I have sinned.
I am going to explore Catholic prayers for a while: I found this at this website, Daily Word of Life: Favorite Catholic Prayers at http://www.daily-word-of-life.com/catholic_prayers.htm I thought it was appropriate for my purpose and the liturgical season.
Prayer Before a Crucifix
Behold, O kind and most sweet Jesus, I cast myself upon my knees in your sight, and with the most fervent desire of my soul I pray and beseech that you would impress upon my heart lively sentiments of Faith, Hope and Charity, true repentance for my sins and a firm purpose of amendment, while with deep affection and grief of soul I ponder within myself and mentally contemplate your five most precious wounds, having before my eyes that which David spoke in prophecy of you, O good Jesus: “They have pierced my hands and feet, they have numbered all my bones.” Amen