Our Lady of Fatima

My grandparents  had two big bookshelves in their living room.  They were filled with many different types of books.  One of them was a  history of the apparation at Fatima.  At age seven or eight that was my favorite to read during “down” moments at their house.  I was fascinated.  As an adult, I have not been as fascinated with it, other than when the third secret was revealed and Cardinal Ratzinger wrote his interpretation.  After this, I have been fascisnated by all the conspiracy theories, etc.  Since I believe Pope Benedict tells the truth, I believe the third secret has been revealed.  I also believe there is much more to the story as Lucia had a more complex story than we know.  I am sure all will be revealed in due time about that.

I believe the apparation was real.  I believe we have been living through a period that is about to come to an end next year.  What that means or will look like – I don’t know.  But the increasing violence, the lack of faith, the lukewarmness of the faithful are all part of this experience.  So, I think we should consider praying the Our Lady of Fatima prayers often;

Say the rosary and here are some others:

My God, I believe, I adore, I hope and I love Thee! I ask pardon for those who do not believe, do not adore, do not hope and do not love Thee.

Most Holy Trinity – Father, Son and Holy Spirit- I adore Thee profoundly. I offer Thee the most precious Body, Blood, Soul and Divinity of Jesus Christ, present in all the tabernacles of the world, in reparation for the outrages, sacrileges, and indifferences whereby He is offended. And through the infinite merits of His Most Sacred Heart and the Immaculate Heart of Mary, I beg of Thee the conversion of poor sinners.

Oh my Jesus, I offer this for love of Thee, for the conversion of sinners, and in reparation for the sins committed against the Immaculate Heart of Mary.

and then there is this one which I often say:

Oh My Jesus, forgive us our sins, save us from the fires of Hell, lead all souls to Heaven, especially those who have most need of Thy mercy.

Oh Mary, Most Holy, please continue to teach  us to pray, intercede for us and help us to love your son, our Lord, Jesus Christ.  Amen

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My title is sort of a personal pun. After being away from blogging, I’ve returned.  I was gone for two days, looking as if I have abanondoned my blogging but – I have returned.

I traveled to a funeral.  These are always sobering and as I age, increasing in frequency.  In your kindness, say a prayer for my friend and his family.  My friend was a father and grandfather, a husband and brother.  He was a recovering alcoholic and drug addict.  At one time he was homeless.  His wife, one of the strongest women I’ve met, practised tough love.  After awhile, she won.  And so did God, he was back in Church and volunteered at a local soup kitchen, helping others.  He was the prodigal son who returned.  Or was he? Perhaps he never was lost.  Does it matter? No, I don’t think so.  My friend loved and was loved.  He gave of himself.  He lived.  He was a child of God, who never abandons his children. God loves and doesn’t lose us.  We lose Him.

I pray to the Lord for my friend’s soul and for His consolation to the family.  I pray, I beg, that the mercy He extends to individuals, He will extend to all.  May we hear His call, that whisper of love in our hearts.  If we do, we will not kill and maim our brothers and sisters.  Lord, do not abandon us – Shepherd Us!

Mary Mother of God, pray for us.

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Day 2 of “Time to Be More Active”

It is heart wrenching to read about the latest terror attack in Nice.  They are all heart wrenching.  But, it is particularly heart wrenching to read about children being mowed down.  My heart goes out to the parents as well as the children who lost a parent or parents.  This must be a crime that calls out to heaven, calls out to all of us.

Mary Mother of God Pray for us.

“Hail, Holy Queen, Mother of Mercy, our life, our sweetness and our hope.

To thee do we cry, poor banished children of Eve, To thee do we send up our sighs, mourning and weeping in this valley of tears.

Turn then most gracious advocate, thine eyes of mercy toward us and after this our exile, show unto us the blessed fruit of they womb, Jesus.

O clement, O loving, O sweet Virgin Mary, Pray for us, O Holy Mother of God, that we may be made worthy of the promises of Christ.”.

I know I am crying, begging for help.  I am just plain crying too.  It is a valley of tears.  I do feel banished too – why is this happening? Where is the Lord?  We know these are cries throughout all of history during these types of events.  We know the Lord is near, He is with us.  He has not abandoned us.  Although unworthy, we need Him to hear us.  Please pray to Mary, our most powerful intercessor; to the Lord; to the Father that the world will be spared and that we are made more worthy of the promises of Christ.  May the Lord Have Mercy and show us the way. May we have eyes and ears to see and hear the way. Oh Mary Mother of God, Queen of Heaven and Earth, pray for us.

I learned after posting that today is the Feast of Our Lady of Mount Carmel.  Our Lady of Mount Carmel, please pray for us.

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Time to be More Active

In light of all the terrorists attacks, I think it is time to be more active on my blog.  I have been in a state of ambivalence about blogging.  Some of it has to do with the state of the Church.  Most of it just has to do with daily life.  While I always pray, the world needs public prayer just as much as it needs private prayer.  I hope whoever comes on the page will start praying – whatever faith  you are for peace in this world, the end of hate and the growth of love of neighbor.

Prayer to the Immaculate Queen of Peace taken directly from: http://www.catholic.org/prayers/prayer.php?p=310

Most holy and immaculate Virgin, Mother of Jesus and our loving Mother, being his Mother, you shared in his universal kingship. The prophets and angels proclaimed him King of peace. With loving fervor in our hearts we salute and honor you as Queen of peace.

We pray that your intercession may protect us and all people from hatred and discord, and direct our hearts into the ways of peace and justice which your Son taught and exemplified. We ask your maternal care for our Holy Father who works to reconcile the nations in peace. We seek your guidance for our President and other leaders as they strive for world peace.

Glorious Queen of peace, grant us peace in our hearts, harmony in our families and concord throughout the world. Immaculate Mother, as patroness of our beloved country, watch over us and protect us with your motherly love. Ame

Hail Mary, full of Grace, the Lord is with you.

Blessed are you among women, and blessed is the fruit of your womb, Jesus

Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death. Amen

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I meant to start blogging again this Lent.  I find myself still in a funk.  I watch with anxiety the divisions within the Church.  I don’t see Francis acting like Peter defending the Church.  Rather, he seems to be the promoter of dissent.  I know some people would say that I am casting stones but I cannot help but wonder who the puppetmaster is behind the puppets?  Perhaps many are right, he is just being a Jesuit.  That doesn’t help me, a graduate of a Jesuit college.  They ruined more people’s faith lives than I can possibly count at my college.  We did all receive a wonderful education that has helped us in the secular world.  We were left unprepared for the real battles of the world.   So I don’t have much hope.  I do have hope in the Lord.  He never fails us even when we cannot fathom why we are in this place where Archbishops and Cardinals in Germany blackmail with threats of seceding from Rome – they are not a subsidiary! No, they are just supposed to be in communion with all of us.  Communion is the fight – let’s give communion to everyone.  Not a bad thought, merciful, none of us are deserving.  But that’s not the point.  The Lord’s words are being thrown out.  They are actually being thrown in our faces and the end result will be no one cares about anything.  The church will have given away its treasure in one pastoral act that actually mocks the master, not fulfill His words. (Other disruptions – the Rosica Affair, the Pell affair, the 5 cardinal book affair….)

And so, I ask that you pray for me that I might not despair.  I pray for Francis that he will be Peter. I don’t think Francis is wrong about his social message!  When he talked to his priests the other day, I think he revealed something important.  He doesn’t act thinking about being in the presence of the Lord when he thinks.  He is impulsive. So, my prayer for Francis is that he actually become more spiritually mature and less reliant on his own brand of spirituality.  I pray for the world.  I pray for the Church.  But, I feel weak, insecure, unsure, on the verge of giving up, on the verge of not trying, on the verge of ….  Pray for me please.

Mary, Most Holy – please pray for us.  It really is in your hands.

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Merry Christmas

I feel disconnected to my blog!  I have been away two weekends in a row and did not post last Sunday as I’m playing catch up here at home.  My advent has been so busy that I am not prepared and I have little time to prepare.  I am very prepared for the commercial aspects of Christmas – it’s the spiritual preparation that has fallen to the wayside.  Without Christmas – where would we be? how would we be living?  how would I be? how would I be living?

I get tired of secularists blaming Christianity for all the ills of the world. Yes, Christians make mistakes, big ones.  But, Christianity is about God.  It is about Love.  “For God so loved the world that he gave* his only Son, so that everyone who believes in him might not perish but might have eternal life” (John 3:16).  It is that simple.

The world has problems because we don’t love.  We don’t love God.  We don’t love our neighbor.  I fall short of this.  Can you imagine if each of us loved as we should?  Can you imagine a world in which no one thought this?

Yes, Christmas is here – Alleluia.  Let us rejoice, recommit, and love God and our neighbor – transforming the world.

May all who read this have a blessed Christmas.

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Thanksgiving, Happy New Year

I was away for Thanksgiving visiting family and had a work trip so I did not post.  I am still playing catch up in my life.  I am grateful for this life of mine and am thankful to the Lord.  That is a recurring theme in my prayers, even when I am down.  The Lord has been kind and merciful to me.

I pray to him in this New Year to enlighten me.  I am down.  I am confused.  I need my valley to be broadened and nourished.  I need the mountain to be laid lower to let the light in.

I tell myself not to want.  Wanting brings trouble.  I pray that my wanting doesn’t get in my way.  I ask for prayers to move forward, to not fall into the pit.

I found this prayer by Origin here,

Origen (ca. 184-254)

May the Lord Jesus touch our eyes, as he did those of the blind. Then we shall begin to see in visible things those which are invisible. May he open our eyes to gaze, not on present realities, but on the blessings to come. May he open the eyes of our heart to contemplate God in Spirit, through Jesus Christ the Lord, to whom belong power and glory through all eternity.

I beg the Lord’s forgiveness for my lack of Charity.

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